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‘Fake love affair’
‘What you being so weird about?’ her remarks are always like she does not care a bit about anything. Sisters are mostly like that.
‘My diamond shoes are too tight.’ that’s all I could utter in reply to her question and managed to add a smile to hide the sarcasm.
She is one of the few who has always made me realize that my worries are always trivial in comparison to pain of others.
21st may’09 morning, as I was getting ready for work.
I was not being that weird as she claimed, I was just talking less, was apparently bewildered and did shed a rare tear. Well yea, I was quite weird that morning. And whatever I was going through was all my mess that I made in past one month.
Till now I have not told you whether I am a guy or girl, in my case that’s insignificant, take me as a soul who still does not know its place in the world ( well who knows).
Ok, coming back to my story, it started a month ago, I met a guy via online dating.
What was I doing there ???
Good question !!!
that’s the only place where I could experiment about relationships, sounded safe too, besides nerds like me want everything being delivered at there doorsteps and to order a boy friend was easy online.
Get the crazy idea that I am gay (its not that crazy though, so relax).
So I met this guy online a month ago. He sounded genuine, scared of what I was doing I tried to maintain my personal information inside me. My plan did not work very well, as I ended up giving him my phone number in the very 1st chat. We talked on phone that night. Wuss that I am deep inside I deleted my online profile when he said that I should maintain distance if my mottos are to hurt or leave him in future. But recovered it immediately when he said ‘chalne dete hain, dekha jayega as thora risk lene me kya jata hai’ I can not deny that I was thankful to him for saying so.
So we decided to keep the friendship and leave everything else on faith.
You must have known by now that both of us are dorks, taking these online things to those levels. Well sometimes virtual affairs so beautiful that you willingly close ur eyes to reality.
And I am the biggest air head known for that matter as I am always putting myself up for short term deals. God, why do I do so, I really need help. But then my friends would affirm everything that I do, so positively, they make me say ‘ ya, lets do it, waise bhi sochna hum pe suit ni karta’
Ok, where were we in my story .. Hmmm , yea, so we decided to meet up as ‘friends’, to keep things simple, after a week or so. We were just friends as we claim it but it looked like we were connected the whole damm day n night via sms or call or chat.
let me say it now that I was the cruel one, I was the one who was experimenting, and I cared a damm about telling him anything about me because all I wanted was a fling for the time being and I was enjoying the constant attention that I got from him. I totally lied to him about one of the significant issues. One thing I made sure I was telling him in doses that I am not looking for anything serious so he is riding the risk of falling in love all alone. I am that selfish, and I do not have any explanation that can defy the previous statement. Anyway ‘what kind of shrewd individual’ I am, is not the title so let me move on with the significant part.
The destined day he came over to pick me up from my campus where I lived. I obviously was glad at his extra effort, as you know, for individuals like me, extra attention is always, always, always welcome.
